Going back in time– a concept that sounds so nice, yet so dangerous at the same time.
I think it would be so nice to go back again. Sometimes. My high school years weren’t the best years of my life, but they were some of them. Most definitely. At least the good times I had with my friends, the good times I had in general. It would be nice to relive those experiences again without just photographs to remind me.
Fixing things I messed up would also be a plus. Although, I’m a firm believer in that whole “everything happens for a reason” type of thing. It doesn’t mean I always want to accept it, but I believe it. Even still, there are plenty of things that went wrong that I could have prevented, or plenty of things that I didn’t do that I should have did. If I could go back, I would (at least) do the things I didn’t do in order to make my “now” all the better, the way it should be.
I wouldn’t change the friends I made back then, regardless of our “now” situations or lack there of. I don’t keep in contact with the majority of my friends from high school…although I’m attempting to get back onto my facebook more often to do so. I wouldn’t change anything about meeting my boyfriend, because things are perfect the way they are. Relationship-wise anyway, haha.
I would take my school work more seriously and I would make sure I did it to the best of my ability instead of slacking off. Most of the grades I got in high school were in no way a reflection of my abilities, because I could have done much better if I had wanted to. I was (psh…I AM) a huge procrastinator, saving work for the night before or the day of. I didn’t hand in many of my essays or bigger projects because I got lazy or I was “busy” living my teenage life. It’s easier to understand how many teachers (or adults in general) view high schoolers now, considering I was one of those youngsters who had so much potential but let it go to waste. I had plenty of teachers tell me that. I should go back to visit and present them with a bouquet of flowers for putting up with my anyway.
I would go back before my grandmother died of breast cancer and be a better grand-daughter. I was a spoiled little brat when I was younger. I yelled at her a lot and treated her horribly sometimes…I remember one fight in particular when she said, “Well fine…I’m sure there are plenty of other little girls who would want me as their grandmother…” I don’t remember what I said, but I’m 100% positive those few tears she shed when she said that were not deserved. (Have you ever read For One More Day by Mitch Albom? If I were the main character, my grandmother would take the place of his mother. Go read that book.)
I would have spent way more time with the friends I wish I was still in contact with. There are a few that I miss so much that it makes my heart ache! I would also have spent more time with two of my friends who passed before their time. Then again, I can’t think of one person who would make a similar wish in regards to someone they have lost.
The only set back to this– changing something in the past changes a lot in the future. As long as I’m not a horrible person,my boyfriend is still here loving me to death, my family is still healthy and happy along with my friends…I can’t say I would care if my “now” would change. As long as it would be for the better.
If you could go back in time, what would you relive or change?